colorfulchaos

well, this is an easy topic to respond to. ;]

I’m in college, as are most of my friends. My attitude about drugs and alcohol is that as long as you don’t get addicted, now is the time to go crazy. When you’re out in the real world and have a real job, you won’t have the opportunity to go nuts whenever you want; therefore, cherish the time now while you have it. And do it with people that you love.

However, it should NEVER get in the way of your responsibilities and should not be something that causes an issue in your schooling. Don’t let it mess up your life. I have definitely grown more mature with alcohol when it comes to personal use since going to college. Freshman year, I went insane and was a mess every time I drank. I have DEFINITELY learned my lesson since then and have overall become so much more responsible. There is a way to have fun while being responsible. There’s no sense in getting in trouble and potentially ruining your life over a substance. I personally have goals in my life and I won’t let things like that get in my way, although I do definitely like to have fun. ;] 

BHA.

I was drunk and I made out with my best friend who is gay the night before I came home for summer vacation. Oops. Yolo. 

Oops, I missed a day! I’ll catch up now. :]

Well, I do tend to worry about things sometimes if they are very important. Currently I have kind of a small scale worry, as well as a larger scale worry…

My small scale worry is about my job(s) this summer. I have been tossing the idea back and forth about whether I want to work at my second job again this summer. At first I didn’t even think that I still had a position there at all, but I recently got a lot of emails about it, so I know for sure that I’m expected to come back there. But, I simply cannot do it. I’m facing my high school dilemma, in that I could never say no to anything. I kind of still can’t, but for this, I know that if I take the job back, it will cause me a lot of stress, as well as my family. So, that’s been my worry since summer started.

My large scale worry is about the future, what else is new? I’ve been thinking a lot about how soon I really am going to graduate college and try to get a job, or even student teach. It actually really really scary to me. I know that I want to teach, I love it, I am a different person when I’m teaching and nothing is more fun to me, but I just don’t ever want to let my students down. I don’t feel skilled enough at piano, and I’m worried about that for when I direct a group next semester. I haven’t even begun to take my methods courses yet, so I know that I will feel more confident once I do that, but it’s still a very scary thing to me. I just hope that I will become more confident and that the future won’t look so scary to me.

This is so difficult for me, because I feel like I can understand why people cheat, but I don’t agree with it and I know that I personally will never cheat on someone that I am dedicated to.

If you’re in a good, healthy, fulfilling relationship, I see no point in cheating on that person.

If you’re in a bad relationship that you’re looking to get out of, I think that cheating is the easy way out. Face the problem, don’t go and be reckless about it and then have the other person find out that you’re cheating.

I don’t tolerate cheating at all in a relationship. If I find out that my boyfriend’s cheating on me. Done. End of story.

I can understand that people may get sad sometimes and yearn for something more in their relationship and if there’s someone right in front of them who’s offering something that they want, sure I can understand that urge. I just don’t understand how you would not have enough self control to say no and really evaluate what’s going on in your life that’s making you even consider cheating. At least hold of on doing anything with the person until you’ve really thought about it and at least broken up with the person that you’re with.

Knowing that your partner is cheating on you is one of the WORST feelings, take it from someone who knows. Spare your boyfriend/girlfriend that feeling and just be upfront and honest with them and yourself. If you don’t want to be in a relationship with them, end it.

Funnily enough, I actually haven’t truly liked anyone in years. I think that one big relationshipthing that I was in really did a number on me, more so than I realized at the time.. It’s not that I haven’t been ready to date again, because I am, but it’s still a scary thing to me that I shy away from. I have definitely been attracted to people since then, hell I have dated since this happened, but it was never as serious as this thing was. But, I always end up kicking myself because whenever I do find someone attractive that i’m mildly interested in, I never pursue it seriously enough, in the hopes that they’ll pursue me, but then they end up with someone else (of course). And to top it off, it’s usually with someone that I’m friends with, who I wouldn’t want to hurt by causing any drama or trouble. Although I am contemplating seriously pursuing someone, I am about 90% sure that I do not want anything more to become of it, making me still uninterested in anyone. 

I am one of those people who really is fine alone, I do not NEED someone to be okay in life and able to function and be happy, and the people that do need that person to constantly reassure them, well, I feel sorry for them. 

#1. Being awkward. Awkward boys are sooooo annoying to me. It’s not that hard to talk to someone, please learn. Don’t act weird because I’m a girl, we’re not in kindergarten.

#2. Thinking that being rude/inconsiderate makes you cool. News flash, it doesn’t. ;]

#3. Not having any manners: I cannot stand boys who have no manners. So uncute.

#4. Seeing only looks and not personality. Kind of obvious.

#5. Most of them are too concerned with their image and looking cool to just be weird and be spontaneous. Please be weird and spontaneous, we’ll like you more!

Ha, this is such a simple question compared to the past 3!

Some kind of large t-shirt with girl boxers. :]